Apologies

Hey der

My sincer apologies for not updating in a while boy do I have lots to tell u!!!Haha I garentee it'l be great,from my wild partyn experiences,new hair cuts and perculiar topic like my take on Porn...ohh.Im just really busy with the exams at the moment Im really preasurized,forgive my neglectance towards you.Keep in touch.

Truth Be Told,
*Gran("~")Dad*

Myself revealed

Some people have a problem with being alone but I don’t,I seriously don’t.Mano for example he seriously has a problem standing or siting alone,he feels somehow exposed and finds the need to stick wit a click momentarily until Bradley or I get there.For example some crazy guys or girls will kill themselves if there partner leaves them.Now dats just fucked up.I don’t need any1,I was born alone in this world and Il fucken leave it alone,so why should I try lean or use someone as a pillar.As I always say “I am My True Best Friend”,no1 understands me,lyk Me!

                             

When Im alone I have the time to sort of “connect” wit myself,listen to the little wispers within my heart.I believe it’s  healthy to do this,to excape form the troubles of the world to be with yourself.IS THERE SUM1 OUT THERE DAT UNDESTANDS ME,or am I just crazy?

Somehow I believe I think like this because I’m bitter,yes I know Im bitter.Sooner or later one unlocks the code of life.In my case earlier.Don’t get to attached,so that if that person leaves you,your whole world does not crumble.I can honestly say I always leave space for disappointment,so that when it happens you can just shrug it off,and life goes on.I’ve been doin dis for the past 4 years and believe me IT HELPS.

Things have gotten a little out of hand I can admit,this bitter at the world attitude of mine caused me to not shed a tear at either of my Granparents and relatives funerals,it’s like my brain automatically tells me “It’s life dude,shit happen,people die!”,then I realize oh well it was bound to happen,it just had to happen now.

This is how I get through the harsh world,but there’s 1 person I can say if he leaves me my whole world will definitely come crashing down with an awesome BANG,that’s Buma of course.He can’t leave me because I ddnt leave a space for disappointment.With animals I just cant,this is then what causes me to become emotional towards them.I get this from my mother.

So forgive me if your close relative passes away,and Im not empathetic towards you. Sympathy is what I can offer.I cannot be empathetic because being around such a person creates a cloud of depression and I hate depression around me.Dont think Im heartless and I don’t feel sorry for u,because I do.I just have a fuckd up way of expressin it.Im the total opposite compared to my cousin/sister Nolwandle she is too empathetic for my liking,I even call her a suck up.Then she calls me a heartless Fuck.Well maybe I am…

Animals make me shed tears,not humans.Humans are evil fucks that do deserve death!All they do is ruin the world,animals are innocent any deserve nothing but to be left alone.

This is the first time I confess this,Ive never said it.Just thought it,and now I’m writing it.Well now you know my little secret,I just hope no1 uses it against me.

Sometimes I ask myself if I should post this…..Well,this is MY blog and I DO SAT IT AS IT IS!

SO the next time you see me alone or quiet,don’t feel sorry for me or think I’m a loner.Im just listenin to myself.You should try it sometime. 

         

Truth be told,

*LuvMe(“~”)LongTym*